roots. 

they shape us,
form us together in our scars. 

our wounds heal within each other
branch by
branch our
tree grows.

seasons pass and we fall
the cracks become wider the
scars will not heal. 
our wounds heal within each other

come back again spring,
let our roots grow deeper. 

you are within me
i am within the earth
growing up from the ground and
you grow down to me
we grow within each other. 

come back again love. 
i am waiting for you. – e.a

sand

you are the waves
they knock me 
push me around like
specks of sand 
folding me inside out. 

they expect me to stand but i
fall with every blow 
up and down i go 

take me away 
out to sea i am 
lost in the dark colors 

the waves knock me 
push me around like 
a lifeless body 
floating on the surface. 
where am i going? – e.a

unseen art. 

pain.

you felt it
too hard to have
dealt with it

it
covered you in
white sheets like
some
unseen art
being ready to be
revealed

you were some
unseen art
covered in colors.

you were drowning in an
ocean of blue and black
unseen by the public
unseen by yourself
covered in white sheets.

pain.
you felt it
too hard to have
dealt with it

small doses of
unknown capsules
unknown to your
mind and
body

unseen art
covered in
unknown words
phrases unused

pain was just
too hard to have dealt with

paint your skin with the
drowning ocean
the blue and black and
red.

covered in white sheets
covered.

you were unseen art.

– e.a

call me out 

call me out call me out of the darkness 
i will be there

call me out and 
i will show myself 

i am here in the dark of night 
hiding from what
haunts me 
within 

hiding from what
haunts the
blackness
but

i need to save 
them. 

i am here 
call me out 
call me out and

i will show myself

– e.a

lost

the time it takes to lose yourself is almost
nonexistent
the mind looks left and
suddenly right and
is astray from its
former vision
former vision cannot be
the infinite vision

lose yourself in 
your own mind in
your own thoughts in
sheets and leaves and 
the bright yellow sun
the bright white moon  
looks in your 
lost mind looking for your
lost soul but

being lost is okay as long as
you make your own way 
home to your self made
home 

lose your mind and make your own home 
for home is where the
heart is but is it where the
mind is ?

home is where your 
mind makes it. 

just wait for it to be lost 
then the realization will come to 

mind and 
you will be home – e.a

switch 

just one.
one flip of a switch and
emotions will

pour fast or

pour no more but
a flip of a switch is

al it takes to
shut me down.
shut me down you

might.

do it i

dare you.
just
do it.
now. – e.a

wander.

you need to understand the importance of the idea of wandering. we all have a desire to wander within us, but sometimes it is hard to find. other times our desire to wander is in a different shape or form, as wandering mentally and not physically. for me this desire to wander is strong. just to walk into a field and walk farther and farther does not scare my mind at all. but to others to even step foot in grass could cause an anxiety further than their mind can handle. for me that was true. the home was my safe place. i could never be hurt or fall ill if i was safe inside of my home. now the stage has flipped and the desire to stay at home is no more.

you need to let your mind wander also. wander far from reality because the imagination creates amazing things and you can go far with what your brain does. understand that if you are sidetracked, sometimes those sidetracks can get you where you want to be but also could cause you to lose what you worked hard for. things have ups and downs either way. you just have to find the right path to take.

the mind can cause harm to itself if it goes too far. far beyond the good it has. going father than this point can cause a person to turn sides. to become someone who acts out in violence or someone whos attitude becomes horrible. do not dare wander into the depths of the darkness of your mind. your light can turn black very quickly if you go there. so for my sake, do not wander into that darkness.

wander in the light. metaphorically [and literally] but, either way the outcome of your journey will be wonderful.

now go. – e.a

 

 

blank

blank.

like my
thoughts
words
actions.
everything i do is a
blank space in
time.

in the end all of these
thoughts
words
actions
everything i do does
not matter to
the world or
anyone else out there who
might think as i do.

in the end the
blank words stay
hidden from the world and
i sit here and
think why
do i matter if

my words are just blank spaces – e.a

don’t 

take it how you see it
fake your emotions so you can feel it
say a word and don’t mean it 
don’t break your walls unless it’s worth it
don’t change unless he sees it. 
no. 

don’t change for someone and not yourself.  
don’t break your walls
say what you mean. 
don’t fake emotions 
don’t read from the outside because you
don’t judge a book by its cover 
covers don’t matter 

pretty hair or pretty face. don’t give a crap about it. love someone for their soul. the way they look at you. the way they treat you and respect you. look at their heart. how big or small it is. how big of a liar they are or do they tell the truth. how they act. how they walk. talk. move. your frame is just a frame. crack the shell and look at what is inside. beauty can be seen or not. but until you don’t give a crap about their frame

the frame only matters to you

and you let the picture burn. – e.a

unnamed vol. 1

child proof the kid
doesnt work

world proof the child 
doesnt work either

we are all not always innocent
innocence is lost 
always 

so do not try to keep us
away from the world
the world finds us
and our minds become fire 

let us go
let us realize that
loss is a part of realizing what
life consists of how
everyone dies in the end
loss is life and
we all are lost. – e.a